distress =(

i feel very very distress now..nvr ever haf dis kind of feeling before..

i planned to drop my international financial management ady..

i dun think i can handle dat subject at this sem..just 2nd week i ady cant follow up..

aik somehow i so hope i now at malaysia cox i'll haf lot of fren to guide me...

sometime i just wan to gif up n just get back to malaysia only..but i noe i cant

cox de decision is all based on mine..n i cant gaf up so easily only..

aik n bout my accomodation thing.."J" sms-ed me n she hope i share room wif her..

but actually i dun like ppl force me..n it did gaf me so much pressure...

haih what shud i do right now?? shud i drop my sub?? if i did i nx year dec only can graduate..

n where shud i stay now?? "J" ask me share wif her..another fren suggest me stay wif them...

why earlier of dis sem..everything doesn't seem to be goes smoothly for me!! argh..

I WAN MIA FOR AWHILE D...i really cant bear wif those pressure d.. >.<

pls get out from my mind

i'm already dont care bout u;

i'm already dont thought bout u;

i'm already dont ask bout ur life;

i'm already dont sms u since i here altho u ask me to sms n let u noe my aus no;

i'm already dont let u noe anything bout me d;

i'm already treat u as a friend already;

i'm already totally gaf up on u;

i'm already warn myself not to buy u anything anymore;

i'm already tell myself let u go n find a new target;

i'm already avoid u from far far apart;

n ur frenster keep updater ur news but i wont view it already..

n god wat u still wan me to do..i already try my best ady..

but why he keep suddenly pop inside my mind...is everyday since i'm here

why when i saw somebody i'll tot it was him..n i noe i really goin crazy d..

i really wan him get outta my mind..pls help me..

i really really dun wan still inside the deep hole..save me up.. =(

because of "u"

hmm..today my mood doesn't seem to b good at all..

i tot my accomodation thing can be settled down today..

but unfortunately..i need find all over again..aikz..headache..

well my main entry is not bout my mood or wert..

is because of someone..de one used to b special to me..

because of u i become more emotional gurl..sometime i got hot-tempered too

because of u i cried before infront of my frens- dat de 1st time..

because of u i went n find a job again n again just to get u something..

because of u i willing to broke up wif someone dat do care me so much

because of u i been drunk again n again..end up me myself so suffering

because of u i been scolded by many frens..cox they said it's not worth..

because of u i been working hard to achieve a better result just hope can match wif u

because of u i didn't dare to change to other college when i failed my 3subject

because of u been telling me tat u will go UTS for 2years..i keep working hard neway end up u went to UWE

because of u 1st time i been sacrifice so much just for a guys

because of u so many times when i able to c u awhile..i'm already feel gladful

because of u i make a silly mistake too- i came to Sydney so early just hope to forget u

because of u i need learn to be independant now..n it seem so tough for me d..

anyway thx the one dat seem to b important for me in da past..cox of u..i been learning n experiencing so much rite now..

when someone told me tat u got a new target already once i had left to Sydney..dat day i keep been thinking n thinking for 2whole week..

end up come up wif dis conclusion..start from today ownwards i really took u as my fren probably a good fren thou..no more than tat..

i wont do anything for u anymore..just can wish u to get an ideal gf dat u been looking for..n thx dat been such a caring fren toward me..n i noe u treat everyone also dat nice..

-poh signing off-

p/s: wanted tok to those tat i trusted so much..but end up none of them is online..aik..is alright..

continue my journey

12/02/07

Today suppose we plan to go over Blue mountains but unfortunately de bad weather doesn't allow us to do so..cox de rain keep pouring non-stop..so we just postponed our plans to other days..end up we head over to Parramatta to done my bank stuff..n de most important is haf our vietnamnese beef noodles..omg is so damn nice..ichiban lolx..ntgh much special on dat day..except just everyday craving a diff foods n de taste..sob i goin to gain weight again..

13/02/07

Yea at last today finally i can go to de zoo..i love to c animals alot..first we took de train over circular quay..then we headed over to de ferry..only can get till de destination..Taronga Zoo..ahh i lazy to explain so much..so just put some random pic only lolx..

in da ferry..                                        seal show time

star turtle                                                                   yea at last koala bear is awake..haha

skyway cable from taronga zoo..                                   cool =)

explore sydney [ Part II ]

9/02/07 Friday

Me with cousin Tasha n cousin Sally took the train over Central Station..cox today i need go meet up with Ms Michelle Lin to ensure my enrollement of subject..Unfortunately..a bad news for me..i gotto drop one of my subject 1st because due to wat she told me..i hvt meet de requirement for dat sub..n in UTS de rules is very strict for it..so i gotto take a new sub 1st..is tough for me actually cox i need buy those book at here as well n i knew it will cost me quite much..but wat it did make me feel surprised was the UTS is really very big n it got lot of blocks over dere..out of my expectation..so after settled down my sub..we went to paddy market n market city to buy some stuff..as in quite cheap over dere..then we headed over ChinaTown to haf our lunch..

UTS- one is Haymarket another is Broadway

10/02/07 Saturday

Well, so today our plan is go over Castle Hills to haf some shopping as well..we bought those liquorice, gummies, lovely n cute stickers [it so cheap n just cost us like 99cents each only]...we haf mexican lunch..woah is quite nice haha..after dat we brought one dozen of Krispy Kreme donut to brought back home..lolx..

mexican nachos                                                                 savoury crepes- meat lovers..yummies

krispy kreme..omgness dis is incredible nice..really..vern if u come i sure bring u eat dis haha..

11/02/07 Sunday

ahh..hate sunday start from dat day onwards..cox i'll be goin to church every sunday..need wake up so damn early in da morning around 9am..n i nearly fall asleep inside de church..haha no choice must get used to it..cox my 1st few frenz i known is start from church mate..zzz..after 1nhalf hrs for de church thingy..cousin drop us at woolworths so dat me n my another cousin can get some timtam biscuits, chocolates, n other foods to bring back over malaysia..after around 2hrs shop inside dere..my cousin bring all of us head over Outback to haf our lunch..to try de real austrialian food..steak..haha

bloomin onion..very very nice as well                      caesar salad with chicken breast

Rib Steak                                                                 Rockhampton rib eye

Haha alright dat is my 1whole week that i had did in Sydney..btw one thing is tough for me dat here we need walk alot..sigh..i can haf a good diet already..haha